The closest to heaven that I'll ever be...

- Can I use your name in my story?
- What's the point after all? People will see the name and not the story. I don't want to interfere with your message.
- But don't you want the world to see how you really are and that you give interviews to someone just to create a story?
- Actually I don't want to draw attention. I am happy the way I am. But don't get me wrong, if you want to use my name I have nothing against it. It's your entire choice. I won't be mad.
I saw that she was telling the truth. She was used with getting a lot of attention and this could be some good advertising for her, because after all she was an actress. But she was still simple and down to earth and I really wanted to as her a few questions.
- So, first of all, have you always wanted to be an actress or someone pushed you to?
- People pushed me to do a lot of things and I did some of them. Of course, it was stupid, but this was something they tried to push me away from, so...I can't say that I wanted to do this since I was born. C'mon, you don't even know how to eat without putting something on your shirt when you are little, so who says that they wanted this since they were kids, they are lying. But it doesn't mean that they don't love it.
So, here she was. Breaking every concept that I had thought before. She knew who she was and that was shy she was running from cliches, from being a part of a category where everybody is the same. She seemed confident and didn't care about what you might think.
- And how you entered in this industry, after all?
- I really don't know. It isn't something you choose, it finds you. You see, I tried to do a lot of things and then I wanted to act and I knocked on doors and I ran and I worked my ass off and I forgot about the people in my life and with all of that nothing. But I never gave up. That's important.
- Yeah, but maybe something it is not meant to be.
- You're right and you will know when you have to stop. You see, my faith was walking on broken glass, I was just a shadow of someone else's thoughts, but I was sent a star that thought me how to shine.
- Those are big words.
- No, please. I don't wanna say big words. She smiled. I had never seen before so much simplicity from someone so complicated.
- But I learnt that when you are on strange tides, you need that little bit of luck you have always tried to deny. I learnt from the bad character what means to be kind. I saw that people can change overnight and all you have to do is let them go. I learnt that, on a set, you can have the best cast, director, writer, but if you don't have the best one who holds the microphone, put the lights ot the one who brings coffee and food, the film won't be as good as you would like to be.
- Excuse me, but how old are you exactly? I asked amused and surprised. She smiled again.
- 25, well almost 26.
- That's impressive. I would like to be like you one day, although nobody gives a damn about what I want.
- Don't worry about them. I wasn't supported too much, but one day, a teacher told us: " Do what you want in life. You will see that it won't feel like work and the end won't even matter because all that will matter will be the journey."
- Wise words.
- Indeed. It was the second time when someone's words touched my heart. It felt good, you know. It felt real.
- I know.
Then it was a moment of silence. Me thinking about what I really wanted, she probably asking herself if she made the right choice.
- But have you ever wondered that maybe this wasn't the best way and all will go down.
- Oh, so many times. I became everything I wasn't supposed to be, but this brought me the closest to heaven that I'll ever be and right now...I don't wanna go home.